Pages (ft. Eleanor Forte)

This song is about a girl who has someone she likes, but is too shy to say anything to them. Instead of confessing her feelings, she writes them down in a notebook. Basically it's 4 minutes of "Why won't senpai notice me?" lol

While "Soaring" was the first vocal synth song I released, "Pages" was actually written first. I sat on the lyrics for months, not really sure how I wanted it to sound. Eventually, I got tired of waiting and just dove in. (Maybe there's a lesson to be learned there...) Using what I learned from the first song and sticking to the 16-bit sounds I love, I sat down and finally got something my ears liked.

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Lyrics

Looks like it's time again, just like all those times before
You already know, but they're the one that I adore
I take my pen in hand, on your pages I will write
All my thoughts not spoken into light

"I always notice you but you never notice me"
"The hand that writes these words would fit in your hand perfectly"
Another page is done, along with two or maybe three
Pages that they'll never get to see

It's so embarrassing, but it's the only way I know
To set free these feelings that have no place to go
They'll never read these lines, I'll never show the truth within your covers
But why should I care when I know it's what I want?

I've told them how I feel a thousand times inside my mind
I've played the situation through to leave uncertainty behind
It's not reality, though I would definitely try
But if they ever read these words, I think I'll probably die

It's so embarrassing, but it's the only way I know
To set free these feelings that have no place to go
They'll never read these lines, I'll never show the truth within your covers
But why should I care when I know it's what I want?

Sentence by sentence I
Sit back and wonder why I cannot tell them
There's nothing stopping me
But my anxiety that there may be someone
Who took their heart instead
Got to their soul ahead of me
'Cause they've got words to say
But I'm vocal in my own way

It's so embarrassing, but it's the only way I know
To set free these feelings that have no place to go
They'll never read these lines, I'll never show the truth within your covers
But why should I care when I know it's what I want?

I take my pen in hand and in your pages I will be
Pages that they'll never get to see